Allie

i fought extremely hard not to cry. so when the taxi finally took off i only shed one tear. thank god i still have your pillow to smell like you.

this would never be the same again. so let's all start over. my new life. your new life.

i only know you took away a part of my heart with you, without noticing. so it died. and now i don't feel whole again.

you knew i could love you. but we can't be together.

so let's love someone new. 

i'm "back to my hometown" with my parents, but to be honest it's actually just my parents' hometown. This shitty tiny town never felt like home to me for even a second in my life. I don't even speak their language when my aunts or uncles speak to me. I just pretend to be listening and fake a smile. Let's cut things straight, as far as i'm concerned, besides my parents i have no family. So why do i fucking have to spend the new year's with a bunch of strangers every year is just beyond me.

So during all the free time in this internetless crappy town, i get the chance to go through all the movies i didn't have time for. I especially loved the pig-faced girl story, in which i have come to known the importance of "loving me the way i am", and a total adorable hottie called James McAvoy! Brown hair and light green eyes! He is SO my type! Cute as a puppy, shaggy hair (feel wrong to admit that i have a thing for man bangs! :p OMG!), libertine-like free spirit, nice shirt covering a great-shaped man body, and of course, BRITISH!!! Oh geez, i think i'm in love, quote the Teenagers, LOL... Plus i must compliment the music director on the soundtrack choice of using Sigur Rós. Only god knows how many hours i have spent soaking myself into that Takk album.

Anyway, i have also finally taken the trouble of finishing 2 Days in Paris. I confess i have a secret crush on actor Daniel Brühl, the cutie who's in literally every German movie that i like, and he's the main reason i even wanted to watch this film. His character Lukas/fairy, on the other hand, was a rather hilarious addition of the madness about the city of Paris. (plus i had no idea he could speak English so well, without any hint of German accent! Bravo Brühl!) You see, the thing about Paris (and in this case, Julie Delpy's character, which i'm sure in some way is just like her. This is after all her production) is, she's a slut, but you gotta love her. Trust me, i've been there. Despite days full of dirty subway rides, trashy streets, constant worrying of safety, and over-priced perfume smell vanity, even i was in love and shed a small tear when i left Paris. It's this theory i have, that the air in Paris is full of love, and believing in Paris is believing in love. The heart of true romanticists only corresponds with the beat of Europe.

It reminded me again of how i went to Vienna only to look for the vibe of the film Before Sunrise..but actually unnecessary because it was everywhere, in Europe. All you have to do is to be free. I miss that feeling so much after i got back to China. i guess once in a while we all have to run away from everything, and travel alone to a place far far away, where time stops for you. That's where home is.

又是一年过去了，我的iPod里又多了3000张专辑。今年收获很多，很多好音乐怎么听都挺不够。不分先后，只是全都是2008年才发行的。由于各人品味的原因，都是indie pop electronic new rave dance garage类的……

Bloc Party - Intimacy
Kings of Leon - Only By The Night
MGMT - Oracular Spectacular
Ladyhawke - Ladyhawke
Friendly Fires - Friendly Fires
The Virgins - The Virgins
The Aliens - Luna
Foals - Antidotes
Beck - Modern Guilt
Stars - Sad Robots EP
Crystal Castles - Crystal Castles
Death Cab For Cutie - Narrow Stairs
Deerhunter - Microcastle
Sigur Ros - Med Sud I Eyrum Vid Spilum Endalaust
The Teenagers - Reality Check
Johnny Foreigner - Waited Up Til It Was Light
Vampire Weekend - Vampire Weekend
The Automatic - This Is A Fix
Van She - V
The Kooks - Konk
The Music - Strength in Numbers
Fleet Foxes - Ragged Wood
TV On The Radio - Dear Science
Finn. - The Best Low-Priced Heartbreakers You Can Own
The Ting Tings - We Started Nothing
Elbow - The Seldom Seen Kid

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to be continued

今天考德语口译，一团糟的。本来我也从来没现场口译过，就很久以前做过笔译，还挺烂的。结果口译考试的时候结结巴巴的，很多词一顿乱说。德译中因为有笔译功底在还好过，中译德简直比幼儿园德语还骚瑞。一个不小心就把改革开放译成了Revolution und Eroeffnung……经济软着陆，到后面干脆直接来Soft-Landing，反正德国人都会说英语……

啊啊啊啊我这德语啊，太对不起观众了。我的同声传译梦想估计就这样破灭吧……